Multiple Feelings and Thoughts

Shit. I forced myself to go to sleep, and STAY asleep. Through the whole night i twisted and turned in my bed. Constantly waking up and random moments. Got a phone call round 1 or 2 in the morning. Now i can't get back to sleep. Help me. I have school in about 6 hours, and I dont know how i'm going to find the energy to even stay awake in my classes. My eyes are blood red, and my stomach is friggen grumbling.

Aaron (B1zfr3sh) just showed me a youtube video of some freak ass nigguh who hacked MUCH M.O.D. Like, be any more weird and fucked up in the head. His face just randomly popped up out of no where in the middle of M.O.D, and that scared the shit outta me. Especially cause i'm alone in my room and its at a hour that gives me massive goosbumps. And might i add, the guy was wearing some sort of gas mask or whatever. And that always scares me. Hearing about people like this always makes me say, "This world is fucked."

One last thing to rant about.... I dont understand how someone can fuck up so many times, and still make others take the blame for their consequences. Matter of fact, i hate it when people make others take the blame for their consequences. I can't believe this happened to you, and yet we're the ones that you get mad at? Stop getting mad at the damn world, and SUCK IT UP. You put this shit on yourself, so deal with it. Don't make others suffer for your wrong doings. Even though you are a straight up asshole latino...Regardless, We got chur back, argentina.

mahalkita

YJ

Humor me.

So there was a man walking in a crippled way last night. All i could laugh at was aaron's stupid jokes.
"Pop and lock... pop and lock... pop and lock.... HURRY UP YOURE GOING TO MISS THE BUS!"

Ok i know its not funny when i type it down here, but shit. That got me laughing all night.
Thanks, B1zfr3sh De La Ghetto.

April Fools

April Fools today was mad jokes.

A large amount of vaseline was rubbed on the handles of the door today (Jose's doing). Our little groupie of friends enjoyed laughing at the people's digusted faces after touching the disgusting thing all over the handles. Friggen Hilarious!!! Watching five people in a row all look at their hand at the same time, was priceless. This went on for the whole lunch period and even after schoool. And it just never got old!

I told my nigga that i was pregnant and the man freaked on me. So surprised that he didnt want to talk hahaha. After i said "April Fools!", he couldnt even take that in because he was still in shock. He thought i was seriously pregnant, and that oh-shit-your-screwed-for-life face was so boss. Loved it.


P.s : Hannah está sacudariendo sus tetas

Trips Could Change People

Shit, after that one trip i went on, i've been dyin to travel to many other countries. Fuck Canada, Fuck Toronto, and goddamn Fuck Scarborough. Lets move on in life! Ok, who am i kidding. I'm a friggen no life 16-year-old who lives alone with her parents with nothing better to do but talk to herself.

On the side note, i just found out that i'll be going back to Philippines on July 4th. Why! Fuck this i dont wanna go back there. Not right now at least.
1. We live in the broke ass nigguh ghetto side of pinas.
2. 4 weeks in the pina's is WAY too long to be on vacation.
3. Going in July is a BAD idea. Why? ITS FUCKIN RAINY SEASON.
4. It is going to be WAY too hard for me to even try to keep in contact with people.
5. 4 weeks in the sun & hannah, do NOT mix. I'll be darker than michael jackson when he was actually BLACK.
6. Philippines is basically 12 hours (just taking a guess) ahead of T.O. Do you bitches have any idea how messed up my sleeping pattern is going to be?

Puntang ina, i am not ready for this trip.

Cruel Intentions.

I've came to conclusion that i am WAY to young to be caught up in all this relationship drama. I dont understand why you cant see, that im caring less and less wheter we fight or not. I just wanna enjoy this fuckin relationship AIIGHT. I wanna have fun most of the times, but then at times i wanna kill myself because of this insanity! I go home everyday straight after school because it's the only place where i can be alone and away from these stupid, pointless arguments. I dont know if its me or you. But regardless, this stupid immature fights that we have needs to stop NOW.

p.s: I am too in love with the movie, CRUEL INTENTIONS. Seriously, i feel that every human being in this world needs to watch that movie. I know its super old, but hey, its classic.

Trust Factor

Holy shit. Ok seriousy, you are really starting to get on my nerves. And not just you, other people as well. God damn, people. You guys are REALLY annoying me. Drama just revolves around all these peopole, and frankly..im getting reeeeeeeeeeeeeally tired of it. Why dont people just sit in a corner and talk to themselves instead of includin all these people into others' corrupted situations.

On another note: FUCK YOU for even telling me how im such a two-faced chick. Dont shove alll this shit in my face, then suddenly tell me how you take that shit back.

SQUEEZE IT :@

The Mudge Boy

OMG. Ok so i finally saw the Mudge boy, it was absolutely the most weirdest, yet enjoyable movie i have ever seen. I didnt just love it because Emile Hirsch was in it. Yet again, i feel in love with his frikken acting skills, doode! I mean...this isnt the first time he had to act in a gay scene. And i mean literally, gay. But he aint gay! Anyways. I totally cried in the movie because it was completely sad. Sad because his mother died, and his relationship with his dad became akward. I cried when he cried in the end. K i didnt CRY CRY. But i did get that lump in my throat. tehe...

Next movie im bout to watch, THE DANGEROUS LIVES OF ALTAR BOYS.
Whoo hoo, another EMIL HIRSCH movie. :)

Kernels Popcorn, Salt and Vinegar with a scoop of White Cheese.

Ok so, today was the first day of school . And it was extremely BLAH BLAH BLAH. Came late to 1st period (what a way to start the new year). Terrible, i know. I dont find it that bad to be late for 1st periods math class because, i TOTALLY understand it. :D . I dont care if its a gr. 10 math class, and im in grade 11. So suck it bitches. Yes, i might be mathematically retarded in some ways, but im learning ok.
Ok so, whenever Mr.Morgan talks, i feel like im going through a never ending fall to HELL.

The menstrual cycle sucks dick.

Fuck you, period shit! Besides the fact that its extremely uncomfortable, it could be extremely PAINFUL. Today i had the worst cramps i've ever had in my life. Even though it only lasted about an hour, it was crucial. I curled up like a ball on Janelles bed telling myself that i want to die. All because of cramps.
Ok so i'll stop talking about my issue with menstruation. Today, i woke up at 9:00am to wake up gustavo so we could go out for our breakfast date. Met him at markham station to have our big breakfast. (The first time i told gustavo bout "markham station" he thought it was an actual subway/bus station. But it is actually an all day breakfast restaurant) After our sexy breakfast, made my way to janelles house and he went to his cousins house. Watched a movie with homies. I was TOTALLY disappointed because JUNO was practically sold out. There were 5 seats left, and there were 8 of us. FUCK YOU CINEPLEX! It was too late for us to turn around and go home. So we ended up watching Alien vs. Predetor. Which was a really weird and pointless movie. So gustavo promised me that we would watch JUNO together...Just us 2 lol.

Oh my gosh New Years was the shiiiiitt, bitchess! I think it's because Joselito actually came and spend new years EVE with my family. But he didnt stay for the countdown because he did that it his cousins. I know janelle haad fun too. Not because we all gotdrunk (especially her), but because her leslie-bear came to spend new years eve too. But a little conflict happened with her and her mother. But anywho. Lets not get into that. Ugh, yet again jose was being the biggest cutie. Might i add that he also came to my house at 8:30 in the morning. So i spend the whole entire day with him. Toooo live. K, i feel so retarded showing the world that im like totally happy about the fact that i spend my whole new years eve with the boyfriend. But i cant help it. A lot of drunk people were running around today. Even jose and myself. But we werent THAT drunk. ahha. K so now im here writing on myblog, with jezer(my cousin) talking to his girlfriend. Oh joy, i remember my grade 9 relationship. Listening to the way Jezer talks to his girlfriend, too cute. hahaha.
I'm totally happy that it is 2008 now. The beginning of 2007 was terrible. Lost love, lost friends, faught with my bestfriends, lied, i was being unfaithful with the ones i truly cared about, and i was fighting for the wrong things and wrong reasons. The end of the year was a successful time for me though. Got even closer to my homies. Got back with the one i truly love (corny, yet totally true). Conflicts were finally resolved, and forgotten about! 2008 its totally looking good for me, mawfuckers :) . I LOVE YOU JOSE GUSTAVO FLORES! May we spend the new year together, forver nd ever...AMEN. ;)

Okay so, im deciding whether i should stay with livejournal, or start something new with blogspot. Its awfully hard to choose since ive been on livejournal since i was in the 8th grade. But at the same time, blogspot looks very organized and fresh. I guess i just want to try something new. So, here i go giving blogspot a chance! :D

K i dont wanna sound like those mushy gushy girlfriends...but i dont care, joselito has been the sweetest thing during the holidays. So heres my story, he knew what i wanted for christmas but he kept waiting last minute to buy it! So i guess it hit him that i got super angry when ididnt get anything for christmas or our anniversary present on december 6. It is now december 29, close to new years, and i still havent gotten anything thing at all for the past celebrations (except my birthday, of course). So after constantly nagging himand telling him how i feel like shit cause my own boyfriend couldnt get me anything and that he waited till BOXING DAY to buy the electronic that i wanted. And you all know that it is almost IMPOSSIBLE to find certain electronics during the holiday seasons. So on thursday, my mom and i decided to go to bestbuy to buy the laptop that i wanted. Even though it was a day after boxing day, bestbuy had the 2day sale, and things were obviouslly going to be sold out again if we didnt get there first. So we arrived at bestbuy at around 8:40 in the morning. As we were passing by the store, about to park, we saw a small line of people infront of the door. And there i saw JOSE standing in line at 8:40 in the morning, waiting for bestbuy to open so he could get first grabs on my "present". But of course, it was COMPLETELY SOLD OUT. But on the bright side, i got to see my love at 8:40 in the morning freezing his ass off, AND...i got a newlaptop. woo hoo. On Friday morning, he came to my house early in the morning again...and arrived with breakfast...SUBWAY SANDWICHES! I love chepe. <3